filament.

filament.

by | Mar 12, 2021 | addiction and recovery, loss

some float by untouched and unscathed by the Reaper’s scythe. i suppose they are fortunate or maybe just isolated. my world is large; much has been lost. these days funeral halls stand empty of mourners and full of people. as i scroll through endless...
eileen

eileen

by | May 13, 2017 | loss

An open letter to my husband’s mother, who was taken from us too soon. Eileen, You’ve never met me. My name is cici, And I’m marrying your son. I want to say thank you. You created My perfect person, My other half, My missing piece. It’s...
six

six

by | Sep 13, 2016 | loss

It makes it impossible to forget- That one day You have to address it. There is no positive spin. It’s making an effort- Wearing her dress And her emeralds And washing your hair In the middle of the week [Although you never do that.] It’s people who know Saying...
mommah

mommah

by | Dec 25, 2015 | loss

Merry christmas, mommah. I don’t know How I’ve come this far Without you. Some might say It’s a tribute To my strength But I’m not so sure. More than anything, I think It’s a tribute to yours. I have an unwillingness To admit defeat Because of you. Because of What you...
distance

distance

by | Dec 5, 2015 | loss

I hate distance. Both the word And What it represents. I hate time And miles And measuring The separation Of loved ones Or long drives To old stomping grounds Turned unfamiliar. I hate how long it’s been Since I’ve seen her smile Or held her hand. That the distance...
behind my eyes

behind my eyes

by | Nov 12, 2015 | addiction and recovery, loss, relationships

*Trigger Warning: sexual assault and rape.   My sleep is plagued by nightmares. Some are so real I have to get up, Walk around, Check all the clocks, To convince myself It didn’t happen. I dream I’m drunk, Stumbling and unsure, I’ve lost my car, Can’t find my...